Now
May 2026
After getting back from Thailand and finishing my last day at ex-job, I’ve been spending time going back to the fundamentals. It turns out, I still have much to learn in terms of having the self-compassion to allow myself to fail. I struggle to do anything positive for myself out of fear and uncertainty.
On a more positive note, I’ve really enjoyed watching some of Stephen Sondheim’s productions as well as reading poetry.
🎭 Company
📕 NANGAMAY dream MANA gather DJURALI grow
April 2026
Spent most of the month in Thailand accompanying a friend who was recovering from surgery. I’ve been really taken with how the nation’s infrastructure and people are vastly different to at home. Bangkok is so vibrant and yet so calm and human-centric in it’s design. Brilliant place.
March 2026
After months of process and intrigue, I have been made redundant from my role. Honestly it’s a sigh of relief - I can now spend time looking after myself and figuring out what’s next…
February 2026
Even worse mental health again. Focussing on personal projects and time with friends and reading.
January 2026
Bad mental health again. Focussing on personal projects to avoid thinking about the news.
December 2025
Starting to work on a new personal project using the simplest and most resilient tech stack I can think of. It’s not glamorous but PHP and Sqlite meet these requirements and the end result is also very snappy to use. I think I might need to write a blog post about this!
November 2025
Two weeks’ emergency mental health leave from work. It’s really helped - feeling like I can see the light at the end of the tunnel…
October 2025
Can’t believe it’s been another month, I almost didn’t realise. Very burnt out. Not sure what’s important or what I’m good at anymore.
📺 Hacks
September 2025
Still really struggling with mental health but starting to round the curve a little. Painted my garage and saw friends more which was lovely. Spent a bunch of time learning Gleam and working on my Homelab (publishing docker images on a private Gitea package registry and setting up some new infra).
Ordinarily, when having a really rough time, I stop really listening to music. I think once I’m in that space I start feeling like nothing is good or fun and it just doesn’t resonate. This month was a huge contrast to that though wherein I spent a lot of time listening to three whole albums that were new to me.
🎶 Check out my September 2025 Spotify playlist
I also had friends over at my place a few times to watch movies as well as getting to the cinema to catch The Long Walk.
🎥 Three favourite films this month: Death Becomes Her, Everything Everywhere All at Once, and The Long Walk
Overall I’ve found this year very tough… and the end isn’t in sight yet.
But it’s getting better.
Slowly.
August 2025
Extended very bad mental health time. Kept myself distracted by finishing The West Wing and revisiting some films I haven’t seen since they came out such as The Batman and Oppenheimer.
🎶 Straight Line Was A Lie by The Beths
July 2025
Been tinkering with some music ideas and playing with building a homelab setup for backups.
Due to an adhd med change gone awry, I’ve otherwise not done much outside of work and sleep.
June 2025
Still finding my feet after a very chaotic start to the year. Moved into my own apartment three months ago and have just attended Web Directions Code + Leaders. Spending my time lately thinking about JS build tools, web fundamentals and Formula 1 (go Oscar Piastri!)
📺 I’ve been absolutely obsessed with Severance
🎶 Fantasy by M83 and the debut self-titled Illo.Trio album have been playing on repeat
🎥 Check out The Wild Robot, gorgeous film highly recommend